Doubting God

doubting-god
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“Are you really aware of what’s going on?”
“Should I handle this problem my own way?”
“Why are you being so silent if You’re Almighty? For goodness’ sake, please do something!” 

These are the questions that frequently cross my mind when I’m frustrated at a condition that’s not improving and feel that my Father God doesn’t want to intervene. It’s in such times that the devil bombards me with a thousand and one ideas about “God’s incompetence.” I mean it’s easy to believe in our Heavenly Father’s power when He quickly answers our prayers and does what we expect Him to do. Nevertheless, when His ways do not agree with our plans, that’s when the irritation arises. I’m talking especially about situations I have been praying and fasting for years and little seems to have changed. And the devil uses this opportunity to speak doubt into my mind so I can either give up or handle things my own way.

In my attempt to triumph over these doubtful thoughts, I have recently been pondering about my relationship with my Heavenly Father. Generally, in order for a relationship to work between two individuals (e.g. friends or couple), there needs to be participation from both parties; love has to be mutually manifested, it can’t just be a one-way direction. When it comes to the Father’s love for me, I can’t even begin to describe the magnitude of His faithfulness, care, kindness, and patience towards me. At times, I don’t even ask and He abundantly provides that I’m just left amazed at the love He showers on me. In turn I must also play my part to love Him back if I value our relationship. Hebrews 11:6 says “but without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.” Hence, when the devil inspires doubt in my mind, can’t I do this much by opting to have faith in my Father in order to please Him? Rather than focusing on my problems, can’t I concentrate on sincerely seeking my Father through His Word? Of course, I can. It’s the deceit of the devil that causes frustration, anger, and doubt at God when it’s not supposed to be so.

The thoughts to doubt God’s power will never cease, as long as the devil exists, he will always try to separate me from my Heavenly Father and it’s up to me to choose to resist him. I have noticed these past weeks that when I specifically ask the Holy Spirit to help me overcome these doubtful thoughts that cross my mind, He indeed did so. As a result, I have begun to make it a daily prayer to constantly be Spirit-filled in order to walk in communion in my relationship with the Father.

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